day 20

Day 20: I wish it weren’t true, but this still feels like a chore to me. It’s one of those things that I keep telling myself that I “have to do”. It mostly feels like I’m just sitting with my eyes closed for 20 minutes. I have itches, twitches, sensations, aches, pains. I was feeling frustrated and then suddenly at about minute 16, it happened. My brain calmed down. Finally! The thoughts were still there but softer, slower. It was like an exhale. Please please let this happen sooner next time.