days 24 & 25

Days 24 & 25: I am still struggling. There, I said it. I really think I should be having an easier time of it by now. But I’m not. I have been ending before the timer goes off lately because the whole time I’m sitting there with my eyes closed trying to meditate, I just feel like I’m sitting with my eyes closed! And more thoughts come at me than ever. I’m going to Hawaii tomorrow with my friend and meditation partner so I know I will have some good sessions there. I'm grateful to be in the practice but I just want to feel more peaceful in it no matter if I’m sitting with someone else or by myself.